Walking Back from Hopkin’s Spring on Old Mill Creek Trail and Noticing a Leaf
Which, it turns out, isn’t a leaf at all,
but the brittle husk of a frog, seared in August's grease.
Summer is a white acid, a dry scalder of frogs.
It blisters up slime from the frog’s glands,
blackens to tar the entrails, that perfect machinery of pasta organs,
the duodenum, the liver, the tortellini stomach,
dry packs the entire system into a parchment,
mottled, a sarcophagus of vellum.
This one dried up fifty feet from Hopkin’s Spring,
a silt-dark pond that trickles into Mill Creek.
I’ve come to watch shovelers and cinnamon teals;
six years of drought, but everything’s green and shade,
grass sprung like fountains, ducks quibbling,
the reassurance of willow trees.
I’ve seen frogs like this tucked in the mud, or romping in its sludge,
and when they leave they carry muck on their backs.
But they go too far, forget their place.
The rash of gills receding, the impulse of legs
in bloom, blind leaps of faith.
The beautiful dream of the tadpole
life beyond the yolk, the lily-strewn womb.
Was this your terra-firm hope, withered leaf frog?
Water-bound, but lung-bold,
each spring forward a spring farther,
our lives from such womb-leaping splayed in perils.
This truth our pores have known--
it's a thin frail skin in which we face the sun.
Upon the Face of the Water
Then the third angel sounded: and a great star fell from heaven, burning like a torch, and it fell on a third of the rivers and on the springs of water. The name of the star is wormwood. (Revelations 8:10-11)
The choke cherry where we camped one June
hung low over the water, sheltering
brown shade beneath its branches
so clear the water revealed crooks in our legs
and the mushroom clouds toes make in the silt.
I hid there from my brothers
the last day until they forgot me, leaning
back in the water, chest lifting slowly on elbows
and falling,
legs sprawled wide.
Above my belly shadows of leaves tossed.
The water thinned and lapped against the bank
and a pot of beans puffed on the Coleman.
I closed my eyes and sank into molten inches of mud.
I woke when something snaked past my throat:
a sleek blackness greasing across the water,
slinging ripples against my face. I left
the water and my whole body shuddered.
And it shall be said in days to come that none is able to go up to the land of Zion upon the waters, but he that is upright in heart. (Doctrine & Covenants 61:16)
You’ve seen them on the water, bodies tapered
like canoes with two long pairs of oars,
four smooth silver bowls under their feet,
a pond’s face dimpled.
My friend and I drifted down the Little Manistique in a canoe
the summer we graduated and watched the water-striders
scrambling across the river like hockey players.
Striders don’t actually float, he tells me.
They simply resist sinking—something about surface tension.
Then he says you can drown them with a drop of oil.
Pour some oil on the water and it’ll slick
up the hairs on their legs and they’ll drown.
He laughs. It’s true, he says.
And I feel our canoe sway just a little.
And when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and began to sink. (Matt. 14:29-30)
The body wants to sink.
Only my arching chest contends
against the pull of sludge and muck.
The spraddling legs, the toes and feet,
the groin, the belly slump and fail,
forget themselves in the dark silt.
So it’s not walking on water,
but then I’m no rock either, for all
this dead weight. I won’t falter
and I don’t need a hand.
I’ll turn my back on the devil
and bare my breast to the wind.
(originally published in Dialogue, Winter 2006)