Don't Say If I Love You

by Kathryn Rantala

 

Behind brown greatcoats,

we

when walking

clasp our own hands,

uneasy where we surface in our skin,

uncomforted

by the pardons on the bridge.

 

Fish dance

on spreading splash tails

alarming

with their vertical joys.

 

Hands behind,

oh,

please refuse me

though I carry what I can of lamp

in clean, red palms,

pieces slipping through

to light the magic forests.

 

How is love a sequence;

the piercing through, bliss?

We cannot, do not, arch, thump, whumpf, bleed,

oh,

please refuse me deeper now.

 

The trees, ferns and greens

dance on spray

and fish darken.

 

This mossy, antlered life,

the sharp young bolting things in coats,

held back,

the arrowed hearts within,

 

the wild wounded wood

that sings us sad without.