
You will use it for the flowers the others bring because he is dead.
Or you will use it for dark blue light, the arc of it when, the next evening, the
sun cries over
the house and sends all the windows to the floor.
A trill of orchids wilts over the rim. You will use them for perspective.
The petals
fall when you're asleep like petals in dreams, dying to stop.
You will use them for silence, when the room is a rumble of passing trains
and his
picture rattles over the end tables.
"You'll use it for flowers," I said the other day, placing the blue pitcher on
the
windowsill, turning it so it balanced there. The windows were cold
to the touch
because it was almost winter and the wind blew from the lake.
When the relatives left, the house was a hush. The tracks bent into the
woods along
the lake, the pitcher looking out the window like a great
blue eye.
I know you are reading this in the fragility of evening, when the rain
comes in
from the lake and simmers over the house.
I know you are reading in the half light, your fingers covered with
flour, the
oven on and a silence from the kitchen where the bread
is baking.
The house juts over the lake on spindles. The pitcher paints a blue arc on the
floor. There
is no one upstairs.
first published in Ploughshares, 2001